I Dont Know

Walking down the street
All these broken memories
I'm trying to figure out what I did wrong
And I can't
Let this one slide
Though this pride one day will make me die
I still sing the same old song


And you shoved it in my face
With malice and a hint of grace
Oh why does love make me sick
And I analyze your every move
And hold on to your 'I love yous'
Because you're so damn perfect


And there is a heavy line
Between being fine and suicide
The digression and depression
Doesn't happen over night
So when you see me cry
Goddammit, don't you dare ask me why

Her Obstruction (unfinished)

Her Obstruction

Behind those eyes
Is a catacomb suppressed
Waiting to be opened
And she plays it off so subtlety
Behind that smile
Is a little girl, scared of the world.
Who only knows the paths traced for her
But I’ve been trying to palliate
And revive a wounded soul
But all I could do is close my eyes
And hope tomorrow treats you better


Your heart
In my hands…
You’re blood
On my conscience
Your Tears
Will hit me harder than bullets
Ever could
And as we take that long walk
All I feel is a sense of remembering
This happened before
And I wish I could take away all of your pain
And decimate
Your desolation
If only you understood
That an fallen angel can’t grow back its wings
Until it’s at peace
(With itself)




Baby Dont Destroy yourself

I'm posting far too much

Lovers, Lie, Intertwined

Swaying arms
Interlocked fingers
Have never been realities.
To me

Causing harm
Your blood still lingers
And the blood has spelled out my name
Guilty

And At this parting moment
I feel no regret
I’ll never apologize
For my mindset

I’ve been wronged to many times
To let this one slide by

Love has always been a lie

Lizzy Borden 08

Happiness is a virtue
That you should’ve never had
Well… then I hope you’re happy when I’m gone
Because then you won’t have to wonder why I’m haunting you

You can still hear one of my obnoxious laughs

And you can still read one of my disgusting poems

And you can still be one of my disgusting topics

Isn’t it so much better when my eyes aren’t ‘draped with guilt’

And it’s all replaced with hate?

Don’t be so obsessive…......... of yourself

Don’t be so pathetic.................without him

Do you think a boy’s going to solve your problems?
And take the self hatred away?
So you’re only beautiful when he’s around?
Spare me this bullshitYour jealousy is pathetic

Your prowess…just isn’t working

Your life is built on your lies

Your selfishness is your downfall

Your poems are disgusting

And your eyes are draped with guilt

You have a demon… .......................in your head
And it’s ahead … ..............................by one thousand
And you’ll let it................................ reside
As long as his guilty conscience… is by your side
Where is the angel I fell in love with?
Have you ever heard of malice?
It works great against some selfish bitch
Who wants to destroyed the world
And rebuild it too
You
killed
everything

our last chance to waste life away

Let’s give up for once
On living and let our only priority
Be breathing
(and still, I only breathe because of you)
You can take my love Or leave it
Either way, it will still be there Somewhere…
(somewhere in those misspent days)
Let our insecurities
Fend for themselves
Because I’m so tired of defending it
But the funny thing about my flaws is that they’re only visible to myself
But I can’t find one on you
(you’re so perfect, I promise)
Let your tears be unfathomable
And let your fears vanish in the night
(like a bullet in the sky)
Could we take a leap into what we don’t know? {*2}
Chorus:And we’ll pour our hearts out
And we’ll dream of something better
With a dash of sublime and a hint of immortality

(The world is at your feet
And I am at your door
And you were in my dreams
And you were so serene)
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I could sing the words clearly so you could finally understand
(Or I could scream them, hoping it could reach your subconscious)
Either way I’ll make your knees shake or your head bang
(The acceptance takes my pain away)You’re smile is the morning horizon
And all of your wounds… Drives them to an early tomb
(I promise I’ll protect you)
And now I’ll refuse to lives life'S lie
Until the end of time…
(We are… recluse)
Chorus:And we’ll pour our hearts out
And we’ll dream of something better
With a dash of sublime and a hint of immortality
(The world is at your feet
And I am at your door
And you were in my dreams
And you were so serene)
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Bridge And this is our last chance
To waste life away
In intertwined handsI destroy these days
And this is our last chance
To finally live our life
Break from the ties and binds
Our fingers intertwined
(You gave me life)

I get a bit crazy sometimes

i stared at somebodies myspace and i was pissed
then i wrote


As I view the new and improved
My stomach quivers because I realize I’m not there
Did I know you
At one point or another?
Because I don’t remember you at all this way.
But I’ll continue to pretend
My heart doesn’t throbbing and aching
Along with my head
Every time his name is mentioned

You see
I don’t let go of things that easily so…
I’m tearing myself apart
And I don’t want your sympathy
I just want you to leave me to my work,
After all,
I didn’t matter at all
Did I?
Tell the truth
See what happens
Think for a moment,
It’s really easy…
You were nothing without him
So now you don’t need me
And you two are so fucking beautiful.


And I will watch
My own burial day by day
As the time slowly passes away
I try to close my eyes,
But you keep it in my mind
His initials in a heart
And my heart feels betrayal
And my heart feels cheated
Deceived
Though you were never mine,
How come the hushed ones
Make it off so easily?

I wrote this shit a long time ago

But I'm impressed
Prayer

In this prayer
I scream
No, this couldn’t be a dream
I’m bleeding
She’s seeing
The ugly side of me

All I can do is laugh
Perhaps
I wasn’t made for the weak
The bleak
My check
Is swollen because
I’m struck
I’m stuck
On this black eye


I learned
From a brutal whore
And at this moment
I focus
On the ugly side of war
I’m poor
Poor me
Living in selfishness
I’m selfless
Or helpless?
On the surface
I’m not worth it?
I’m worthless?
You’re perfect?

Hell no.

Corrupted
I’d rupture
Their rapture
And capture
The eye of the beholder
Probably won’t understand…Maybe when you’re older