I've fucked my life up (If only I had used protection)

Are you even listening?
(And yes I'm talking to a wall)
Do you even care at all?
Do you even fucking care at all?

And i dont know where the line ends
And I dont know where the bleeding begins
And I dont know when i stopped the precious praying
And I started slurring sins

But i cant care anymore
I simply do not have it in me
I was full with fantasies
And then you left me empty

So here I sit trying to make sense of it
With hands hands cupped
I'm holding these "I love you" notes
Wondering where i messed up

And I'll always detest august
For all the good times
And how i was gone
For the time of your lives

So here i am- just another broken man
And the angel of your compensation
And I have no magic or self esteem
But i damn sure heal sickest patients

And you can beat me and break me
Hate me and rape me
Use me then lose me
Fucking abuse me
Spit on me
Quit on me
Do whatever you want and say what you mean to say
As long as you're happy by the end of the day

Dedicated to Mr. JJ Lynn